“I’m no longer a slave to fear, I am a child of God..” the lyrics to a Bethel worship song kept ringing in my ear.  My ears asking my heart to listen, my mind questioning how true freedom could really be obtained.  I’ve said it before, fear is paralyzing.  The enemy has a way of using your broken circumstances and dreams against you, filling you with insecurity and doubt, leading you to be completely paralyzed in fear.  It’s a feeling you all may be used to, in fact you may know it all too well, which is scary, especially for God’s children. So where does all of this come from, and what truth can we apply to break free from what’s been putting us into fear’s corner?

We can rattle off a list of sins pretty quickly can’t we?  All the times we lied, said harsh words, made bad decisions, had poor judgement, and even more.  This list comes quickly because most of it is kept safe within only ourselves.  We know everything, don’t we? And I mean, E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G.  Maybe you’ve been like me, where you just get to this “sick of myself” point, ready to throw in the towel on who you are.  Our sin can be overwhelming, it’s a lot to realize that we aren’t good people, and we struggle to do what is right.  It’s disappointing when we want to be better, but we’re constantly worse. And honestly, we may never like ourselves while we live here on this earth, but that’s why what I am about to tell you is so important to understand.

While we sometimes feel like we’re the only ones who know how truly bad we are, we must remember too that God knows every single part of us.  Don’t worry, it scares me and assures me all at the same time too.  I mean, it’s good to be known, right?  Especially in a world where social media can keep others at bay from knowing who we truly are.  God knows every filthy part of us, every sorry attempt, every strike 3, every thought, every sin, and even with all of that knowledge He loves us.  That’s crazy y’all.  I can’t even love myself most days when I think about how bad I am, but the God of the universe LOVES you despite the worst parts of you. And you know why?  Because even though God can see all the bad, He knows he created all the good.  God created us with such intent and purpose, that even in the darkest places of our lives, he has the hope we can’t see because of his omniscience (which is just a fancy word for knows and sees all things).  In other words, God isn’t surprised.  Now hang with me, God knows our bad, but sees our good, and he is able to see our good through the sweetest thing, and that is His son Jesus.

When God sent his son Jesus into the world, it was never to condemn us and remind us of how terrible we were, but instead He sent Him in love (John 3:16).  He sent Him so that He could have a relationship with us.  I can’t even fathom this y’all.. why would a perfect God want so desperately to have a relationship with me?  And while this question may remain unanswered in this world, I believe God always wants to be in community with what He has created.  God is so intentional, and so strategic.  He started with community with us, and when that was interrupted He made action to have it restored, and He did that through Jesus. It was never God’s goal that we would remain in sin.  He never planned that even on our worst days we would decide to settle there.  Instead, He has had you and I in mind before we can comprehend, and wants to bring us freedom from self through faith in the savior.

So, did I chase a rabbit? Maybe, but hopefully, you took from it as I chased… The reason this “no longer a slave to fear” song has such a strong force in my life right now is because when I start to add up the sins in my life, I become overwhelmed.  My first instinct is to figure out how to become better, and how get things right, and stay away from what’s wrong.  And you know what happens?  I try to do those things and I fail, and I fail and I fail again.  I’m weak y’all.  It’s a daily struggle to not become a slave to the fear that I may never be forgiven, or that I may never be good enough, or that I may never fully be freed from my past.  God did not intend for this fear to set in and distract me from my destiny, instead He gives us hope, through Jesus, that we are no longer slaves to our sins, but instead we are saved and sent to do great things in His name.

God has always made a way for you friend.  The detours you experience that throw you off course and discourage you, aren’t beyond His sight.  We aren’t promised that our walk of faith will be easy, but that even in the roughest water, our heads will remain above because that is what our God has set into motion.  Our God moves mountains, and Our God breaks chains, and Our God breathes life into the dead, and Our God loves you.  Stop thinking about the worst parts of yourself, stop putting your life on hold for the sake of fear, and believe that God has granted you forgiveness and is waiting on your move of faith.

“We know that our sinful selves were crucified with Christ so that sin might lose its power in our lives. We are no longer slaves to sin. For when we died with Christ we were set free from the power of sin.” – Romans 6:6-7